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i need friends! [20 Aug 2008|11:23pm]

in_psychedelia_
if you're from jersey message meee on aim

oatmealislove
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[15 Sep 2005|11:51am]

misscamielle
what the fuck are indomethacin?

anyone? are they good for anything?

oh.. and question.

can I shoot morphine pills? purple 30's? someone please give me info on this before I waste more pills. I peeled the coating off.. went to cook it and it gel'd... wtf?
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jackrabbit? no, captain jack [05 Jul 2005|01:35pm]

jackscheetz
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this is the first day of my life.. I think I was blind before I met you. [30 May 2005|03:12pm]

misscamielle
[ mood | high ]

So. Friday night I hung out with Nephi and Josue. We rolled around and smoked some buds. We went to the park and played on the swings. I sat on the table and rolled another joint. We left and smoked the joint behind Nephi's parents' house. Josue wanted to go to Perkins.. so we did. We walked in. Blazed. Our server comes up and asks what we'd like for beverages and hands us our menus. I request water. Nephi does too. Josue asks for Orange Juice. We order our food. But before that, the server comes up, sits down at our table and asks me if he can buy some pot off of me. I give him the nod and tell him to let us have our meal.. then we'd negotiate. He was off happily smiling.. looking back to wink at me. Nephi was somewhat amazed by this. So we had our food.. and I served the server.. we left. We chilled for a bit. I smoked some more bud with them. We goofed around. we sang songs and played rock, paper, scissors. I called my guy and asked if I could pick something up. He told me where to meet him. I did. The night was good until. I went home. Watched some documentary about Howard Hughes. My cousin comes home with his friend. They ask me to drive them somewhere. I can tell that the both of them are heavily intoxicated. I'm like, "sure, dude."

So. I drove them around ALL night. Listening to music. smoking cigarettes. This turned out to be quite profitable. =) I finally got the time to push off around 6 in the morning. I went down to a park by the Mississippi River. You can see all of Downtown from the place. I watched the sunrise. I went home. Went to Wal*Mart with my aunt. Got some stuff. Smell good stuff and other things I wanted. We go get breakfast for everyone and head home. I take a shower, get dressed, do my hair and make-up and end up hooking up with my guy. I called him before my shower and asked him if he'd be interested in getting coffee with me before he went to work. At first he said he had some things to do. So he suggested after work. I said sure and he tells me to call him around 5. I'm off to do my shower. But before I got to the bathroom door he called back. He asked me if I'd like to get breakfast/coffee with him. I told him I could be on my way in half an hour. He agreed it was cool. So. I pick him up. First thing he says to me is, "you look really nice today, Camielle". I thank him and turn around. He grabs his wheels and we're off. We go to a restaurant called French Meadows on Lyndale Avenue. All I could stomach at this point was a strawberry and banana smoothie. He ordered his food. I gave him some smoke. Like a quarter of some really good fucking buds. He thanked me immensely and I showed him that I had quite a bit more on me. He calls his guy and mentions it to him. He says he'll meet us there. His guy shows up. My guy takes the bag and goes to show it to him. I name a price and he says it's too steep. I take it down a bit and he still says too much. He calls back while Drew is in the restaurant. I answer the phone. He asks if he can smoke some of it. I tell him that we can smoke a blunt. Like drop Drew off at work and he could follow me back to my place.. then we could roll and smoke. Drew hears this from his guy and he comes and sits at our table. He tells me he doesn't think it's a good idea. I ask why. He says his guy will "Try to put the mack down on me". I ask what is wrong with that? He replies with, "I'd get jealous". Hmm.. I tell him I won't do it. He says I can do whatever I'd like. When getting into the car my panties went right up my ass. I grab his hand, put it up my skirt and on my ass. He touches my ass and feels where my panties are. I sit down. We're driving to drop him off and a little while later he asks me for my hand. He places it on the front of his pants. I feel his hard throb. I think I sighed and felt dizzy for a second. I dropped him off and he kisses me on the mouth. I kiss him on the cheek and am off. I go home. Aunt asks to go to Old Navy. We're off. We go get coffee. I got sit at her work with her for a few hours. I start to crash. I had no sleep whatsoever. I go in the bathroom and rail some H. I come back to the office and start writing. I go get her food and then go home. I get home and chill for a bit. I was thinking about hanging out with my guy. I didn't end up doing that. I ended up with Nephi. I walked over to his place. Kicked my shoes off and lit a joint. We sat on the floor next to mirrored closet doors. Watching the glow from the bowl. We leave and head towards Uptown. We go over there and go to a park. Nephi asks me if I'd like to go see a movie and eat somewhere. I'm like, "cool dude". We go get pizza. We walk around downtown Hopkins and find a bench. We sit next to eachother. It looks as though we're making out or touching eachother. We're actually shielding eachother so we can hit the bowl. I think he liked this. It seemed as though he became startled when I touched him. Anyhow. We go into the theatre and jump from film to film. I settle with "Beyond the Sea". I hadn't yet seen it and wanted to. I started to crash again so I went into the bathroom and railed some more H. I went back and joined Nephi. He had already seen the film.. but decided he'd stay with me because we were chilling together. Meanwhile my guy has some of my bud on him. He said he'd sell it. Nephi and I left the theatre shortly after my visit to the bathroom. I started to feel like I could vomit if I sat there any longer. We left and went for a ride. We ended up at the Sculpture Garden. We sat on the swinging sculpture and smoked a joint.. then a bowl. We layed there and looked at the stars. I saw Orion's Belt and it reminded me of my guy. Standing outside his friends' house.. him pointing at it and sort of brushing against me from behind. yes. We go pick up my bag from my guy and head home. I cut Nephi a deal and we head home. I also gave him some just for being such a pal. I was really fucked up. But he's a cool kid and I enjoy his company. I get home and I write a little in my written journal. I go to sleep. I wake up Sunday feeling refreshed and happy. I call friends to invite someone to join me for coffee. Everyone is asleep or not answering. Mikey answered though. I asked him if he'd like to go to Uptown and get some coffee with me. He says he'll have the kowboy drop him off. I get ready. We head to the bus stop. At the bus stop we both do rails of H. I roll a joint for us. We walk to another bus stop. We smoke along the way. I feel really good and walking feels sexy. We get on the bus. Oh. I called my guy and asked him if he needed or wanted anything. I asked him if he wanted food or needed smokes. He said he would be happy if I brought both. I went to a store called Fantasy Gifts with Mikey. We looked around and I settled for a Penis Candy Necklace. I went and got smokes for the guy. We walked to Vera's. A gay friendly coffee shop on Lyndale Avenue. We get drinks and sit outside. I had a shot waiting in my purse for me. I went into the bathroom and made one for Mikey. I pushed off and joined Mikey back outside. I bought my guy a salad, bread and juice.. I dropped it off and he told me to call him around 6. I left promptly to get back to my baby. We leave Vera's and head down Lyndale Avenue. We walk down about 5 blocks. we go to another coffee joint. One I know has a pretty cool bathroom. I walk in there with Mikey and head right down the stairs to the bathroom. I give Mikey his push. We buy some water and head towards the sculpture garden. We go down there and sit. I lay down some of the time listening to music. I sing aloud to my baby. We sit on the swinging sculpture. We lay on it. My head rested against his chest. We sit facing the sun. We sat down there for hours. We headed back to Mikey's. I went into the bathroom and made shots for both of us. We do them in the lounge. We sit outside on the swing. I love sitting on the swing. My baby Mikey makes a fire. He lets the tiki torches. We sit there and smoke. We also went for a walk around the block to smoke a joint. We come back and sit next to the fire. I invite my guy over. He's busy. =( I go upstairs to the lounge and lay on the couch. Mikey comes up a few times and sits next to me on the couch as I lay. He asks me to see my breasts. I pull my shirt up and grab my breasts. He asks if we can smoke a bowl. I say yes. We go outside and smoke. I go into the bathroom when we come back in. =) When walking towards the stairs that lead to the lounge, Mikey tells me to talk my skirt off. I walk slowly taking my skirt off. He tells me to talk everything off. I giggle and am off up the stairs. I drop my skirt next to the couch and lay down. I tuck myself in. I sit and think about life and truth. I'm laying there and Mikey comes upstairs. He asks me to stand up and bend over the couch so he can look at my ass and rub it. I stand up and bend over the couch with one knee on it. He rubs my ass with one of his hand. his other is rubbing my back. He spanks me gently and tells me I have a nice ass. I lay down and he goes downstairs to sleep. I fall asleep. I walk up today around 11:30ish. Mikey and I go outside and smoke a bowl. Mikey asks me if I "want to play doctor?" I tell him to give me a moment to wake up. I can barely see straight yet. I go outside and smoke a cig. I go upstairs and make doses. We push off. We smoke more bud. I take my clothes off and put them in the wash. I wasn't planning on spending the night.. didn't bring clothes.. don't have any here right now.. so washing them and taking a shower is the next best thing. I gave us both another dose before my shower. I am sitting now wrapped in a towel. My hair wrapped in a towel as well.

I really enjoyed sitting with Mikey at the garden. It was so nice. The sun shining down on us. Mikey enjoyed it. He said it was beautiful. He thanked me for bringing him there. We sat there for hours. We had a good night. I enjoyed it. He did too.

This is my update. I really need to go lay down and touch myself before my clothes are done drying. (wink)

Later Lovelies. <3333
-Miss Camielle.

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[25 May 2005|07:07pm]

misscamielle
[ mood | high ]

I
am
in
such
a
dark
oblivious
place

come
find
me
come
see
me
come
push

I
am
in
such
a
state
of
conciousness

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I don't like the drugs.. but the drugs like me. [14 May 2005|02:36pm]

misscamielle
[ mood | devious ]

Lisa and Ry showed up. Lisa confessed to me how she and Ry went and scored for donny lastnight. I informed her of Donny's overdose and trip to the hospital. After discussing such matters we moved onto negotiate our scoring capabilities. Off to see the wizard.

I thought one way out of it might be to say that I have no clean needles. She rebuts with "we went to the needle exchange yesterday, we have the set-up". I'm like, "okie dokie, get us some fucking dope". Once again I find myself waiting. Waiting to get high.

Happy Birthday Ass. I'm gonna get high as shit on your birthday and hopefully forget about you for a while. I doubt it. but since Ry is here... maybe it will work. I still doubt it. I just need to get high. I can feel it.

Lisa walks into the bedroom and says to Mikey, "whats the score?" Mikey knows that this is common drug reference. He sits up on the bed and says, "Me and sis want to do some H today". Fuck. It's a done deal now.

Lisa and Ry will no longer hook Donny up with H. I guess he was speed balling lastnight too. Fucking idiot. I'm glad I wasn't with him. I'm glad I won't be with him today. I'm just glad.

I remember him pointing to my neck.. saying, "There's a good vein there, baby". He goes down to kiss that spot on my neck. He bites me hard and holds there for a while. I squirm with delight and kiss him on the cheek. Those days are gone. Baby is baby no more.

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They go to a lake of fire and fry. won't see them again til the 4th of July.. [07 May 2005|04:00pm]

misscamielle
[ mood | high ]

Okay. So yesterday officially rocked hardcore. I went and met Sarah in Uptown. We walked around handing out fliers for her place of employment.. somehow this became fun to us. I guess it was a reason to initiate random conversations with people. Which worked to our advantage. Anyhow. We quit doing that and walked to her place. We sat and did our make up and listened to Bright Eyes album "I'm wide awake, it's morning". Sarah calls Willy (her neighbor friend) and asks him if he wants to go out with us. He accepts and we do the walk. To Mortimer's. We actually skipped Mort's and went to Rudolph's. We started there. We started with Absolut Vodka drinks. We had Mandarin, Currant and Raspberry. Then we graduated to a fine red cabernet. Eventually Alex met us and we did the walk again. Only this time I was two sheets to the wind. Or so I thought. I got to Mortimer's and EACH bartender gave me free shots.. and if you don't know. Mortimer's has 3 seperate bars inside. I ran into some people I used to hang out with. I got totally fucking annhiliated. We left at close.. this is where it got interesting even yet. Sarah had a crew.. I had everyone and Alex had a bunch of chicks. We walked to Aaron's apartment and for some reason Bren said he wanted to go back to his place. I've been to Bren's before. I knew what to expect.. so I went with him. Bren has one of the coolest fucking apartments in Uptown. ALL OF HIS WALLS ARE BOOKSHELVES.. AND FULL OF BOOKS.. (obviously) I wanted to see what Bukowski books he had. He didn't have half the books I have.. but he had "Ham on Rye". I read that. Two of Bren's lady friends came over. We sat around and drank.. then one of his friends suddenly started to annoy the shit out of me. I decided it'd be smart to leave. I walked back up to Sarah's. Determined to crash. I sat down and looked in my purse.. MY FUCKING WALLET WAS GONE. So, I called Bren. He says to walk down 22nd and he'll meet me. I'm walking along 22nd (and further than halfway ;D) I see some people standing outside of Aaron's apartment. I walk up and Alex asks if there are chicks at Bren's. We walk down 22nd to Bren's. Can't get into Bren's. So.. we walk across the street to the store. Eventually we hopped in a cab and Alex refused to drop me back off at Sarah's. He made me go home. Fucker. So. All my stuff is over at her place until I decide to go over there.. which will be around 6ish. Donny wants to get a bottle. Oh, wait! dude, Donny totally fucking forgot about my birthday. Didn't say "Happy Birthday" or anything. Actually blew me off because he was with Paul. So I was like, Fuck you, Asshole!

Today he's all like baby this and baby that. I'm like, wait.. I might be high.. but I just remembered that I'm angry with you. He's like, "Get over it, let me make it up to you tonight". I know exactly what he's talking about. I hope he has a fucking kit. Mine is in my backpack. I don't currently have possession of my bag. So.. That may pose a problem. Anyhow. Otherwise he's giving me head for like 2-3 hours.. in between drinking/smoking/whatevering. God, (sighs) he's good at that much. (wink)

anyhwhoo.. gotta go. Come on and kick me. Come on and kick me. you've got your problems.. I've got my hashpipe.

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nature is a whore [06 May 2005|01:16pm]

misscamielle
[ mood | amused ]

Happy Birthday Camielle!

I hope to have a good year as a 22 year old. It'd be cool if I could make it to 23. Anyhow. I'm going to meet my cousin Sarah at 3. We're gonna go back to her place and hang out. she wants to introduce me to a friend of hers. His name is Aaron. We should have fun tonight. waiting for Alex to get off work. Holler Back Mortimer's.

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this is not my idea of a good time. [30 Apr 2005|10:29am]

misscamielle
[ mood | stressed ]

I don't think things could get worse. I've fucked up big time. I am no longer living with Ma. My parents are pissed at me. I just started a new job.. and everything is driving me fucking nuts. I got to see Ry today. He was with Lisa when she picked me up. I went and visited Donny. We smoked. Mikey came and joined us.

I wish I didn't fuck every single thing in life up. I always do.

Someone lift me from this despair.

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[05 Apr 2005|12:00pm]

jackscheetz
my... artwork??Collapse )
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[07 Mar 2005|04:34pm]

jackscheetz
this is a rather large picture, so i won't upload it. oh, i didn't take it either.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v110/scarletkittygrl/March%202005/mc41000.jpg
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[10 Feb 2005|12:15am]

scream_sunlight
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[07 Feb 2005|08:40pm]

scream_sunlight
I know this isn't really related, but I need all the help I can get and you guys might have some answers.

Okay. I am in desperate need of your assistance.

I hadn't smoked pot in a month, but then on Saturday night I smoked a blunt with my two friends. Then Sunday I did mad cocaine, stayed up all night, and this morning around seven AM I did a bag of heroin. Now, I'm supposed to have a drug test tomorrow, but I was going to reschedule for Thursday (my outpatient program is lenient like that). See, I was supposed to go tomorrow for the meeting and the piss test, and then Thursday for a meeting with a psychiatrist. So I was just going to tell Guiliana, my counselor, that I was sick and if I could just come in on Thursday like since I had to be there anyway. But then today in school, the social worker lady (the one who put me in the program in the first place) was like, "You're aware of the fact that you have two appointments with the program this week, right?" And I'm like, "Yeah, I was gonna ask Guiliana if I could go in on Thursday because that way I'd only be late once this week." And she said, "No, I don't care if you're late. You need to go tomorrow and Thursday. If you don't, I'd have reason to suspect you of drug use and the school will test you. There's no excuse for you to not go, I'm allowing you to be late."

So. I'm like...fuck.

Question: Does the chugging vinegar thing work to clean out your system? If so, can someone provide me with details? Any other quick fixes would be a nice help, too. Please. Please.
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[08 Jan 2005|09:20pm]

jackscheetz
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[22 Nov 2004|07:45pm]

poison
[ mood | stomach ache. ]


from here.
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[26 Oct 2004|11:13pm]

poison
new icon, kids.
default? yes? no? [better ideas?]

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H is for HEROIN [08 Oct 2004|07:39pm]

jackscheetz
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[06 Oct 2004|09:58pm]

build_me_up
i know, this community is supposed to be pictures.
but since that isnt happening;


lets tell stories. i mean, for now.

like. why are you here?


i will get to mine when time is more at my disposal.

[i know its not my job, but, if you please, you should make a whole new post. because replies are so passè]
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[22 Sep 2004|04:06pm]

build_me_up
hi.
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